A silvery shade of blue

Dec 10, 2009

                                                             A silvery  shade  of   blue

                           

Hey, you know… sometimes I wonder if I think too much about you. Sometimes I wonder if I think too much about your smiles and your eyes and your voice… All the little thoughts are always swirling inside my head, making me dizzy and nauseous.

Hey, you know… I’m just a small red leaf riding on the cool autumn breeze, spinning and whirling and dancing around. Somehow the cold has found its way in, and

  I  a m       f a l l i n g,

    f a l l i n g,

f a l l i n g 

…

That dreary cold has taken away my colour of red, and painted a silvery shade of blue on the world. Still I can’t leave yet, I’m still lingering here till my last moments… That gorgeous sky of blue has charmed my heart away.



Hey, you know… I am red, and you are blue.

Hey, you know… sometimes I wonder why I can’t breathe. Sometimes I wonder why I feel so nauseous, I just want to pass out. Sometimes I wonder why my legs are so weak, they’re always trembling. Just then, I realize, you are always there in front of me.

Hey, you know… sometimes I wonder if your world is really painted with millions shades of blue. Sometimes, you seem too real, too close, and too warm to be blue. You feel so warm that I’m burning right here… under the crystal strands of this flowing liquid, under the mystic china blue glaze.

 

Hey, you know… sometimes I wonder if you really understand what you say and the way you act. Sometimes I wonder if you are aware of how your eyes, your smiles, your voice, your touch, and your entire being make me so dizzy and nauseous and weak and needy.

Hey, you know… you make me scared. I am scared that you are making all the red leaves fall and die and disappear. I am scared that I am willing to let them die just for that silvery shade of blue to take over. I am scared that 

 I a m   f a l l i n g , 

And 

f a l l i n g, 

and

f a l l i n g

… 

Hey, you know ...  I’ve been trapped inside this silver cage already.

Hey, you know… sometimes I forget who I am and who you are and why we are this way. Sometimes all I see is just colours blending together, forming a grayish shade of nothingness. Sometimes I wonder why I think and see and feel too much.

The icy blue of winter has faded into a darker shade of gray. The red leaf has gone since long ago.

Hey, you know… sometimes I wish I was still dreaming…

Buried                 deep                  inside                    that

 s i l v e r y  s h a d e  o f   b l u e